Hey there bow friends,
Today’s post is a little different. Although it’s titled “Midriff” it could also be titled “Things I’m Not Ashamed Of.” I have realized there are some things I do or are a part of me that other people don’t like or find embarrassing. I really hate that. I hate it a lot. It’s hard to be comfortable and confident in your own skin while being judged by those around you. I thought I’d list things that I am not ashamed of in order to..feel better about myself. Anyways, let’s get to that list.
- I’m an average student and it takes a lot of work to be that average student. I do the best that I can.
- I do swear. In fact I think I swear an average amount for a college student in their twenties. It’s not my favorite, but I don’t hate myself for it.
- I eat my feelings sometimes. Often.
- I used to overpack a lot. Now I can’t live down that reputation. Oh well.
- As I’ve mentioned before, I’m over weight.
- I have struggled with depression and anxiety since elementary school. Panic attacks and all.
- I’m a very sensitive person. Ask Beau. When I get really happy, I cry. When I watch Long Island Medium, I cry. First 10 minutes of Up? I cry.
- I love Lady Gaga. Let me be a little more clear. I love Lady Gaga.
- I am, above all other things, a sass master. I have strong opinions and an even stronger ability to make sure they are heard.
- I talk loudly. It’s in my blood to talk loudly. My inner Puerto Rican refuses to be silenced.
- Regardless of what others may think, I’m actually quite the introvert. I have to try awfully hard to socialize with people and I surprisingly don’t like being with others all that much. Social situations often times exhaust me. What’s nice is once I am comfortable with people (My family, Beau and his family, my friends) I don’t feel like I have to try as hard. This does mean I have a hard time making friends unfortunately.
- I am obnoxiously proud of being from New York. I’ve lived in Florida for 14 years and although it’s been home for that long, it hasn’t ever really felt like home. It’s just not the right fit for me.
- Occasionally, I dress in ways that others don’t think is appropriate for my weight. For instance, showing a little bit of my midriff. All I can say is that if it makes me feel good, I’m going to wear it no matter how uncomfortable it makes you feel.
I’m really not embarrassed or ashamed of the person I’ve become. As humans, we are constantly changing and developing. I’m trying to learn to love that process. I’ve also been trying to be a stronger person and to build my confidence lately. I just thought something like this post might help me feel better. I actually do feel really good now. I’m going to make some tea and take some time to appreciate myself.
We shall talk soon.
-Tara Joy ❤